Jayne, Thank you for reading. I traveled through a lot of feelings recounting this story, my most dominant one being surprise.
I look back in hindsight and marvel at the depth of my conditioning to “go along to get along”, “don’t rock the boat”, don’t raise any dissent or objection which will allow you to be typecast as an “angry black woman”.
The irony is that all that efforting was an exercise in futility. I was type cast anyway.
I didn’t even scratch the surface of the many egregious micro & macro aggressions that transpired,
during my final few years because they were too many to number. And I didn’t want the larger story to devolve into a list of grievances.
I wanted to stress that at the end of the day it was a victory story, not a victim story. The me of 2022, would not have lasted in that environment anything remotely approaching 9 years.
I’ve done a lot of introspection and a lot of of trauma work which has led to a lot of healing. Given your professional background I know that you “get” the significance of that better than most.
I think far too highly of my healed and self-aware Black self in this season of life to subject myself to prolonged employment amidst that type of toxicity and bias.
I traveled emotions mainly anger through this story and appreciate the lessons learned.
Jayne, Thank you for reading. I traveled through a lot of feelings recounting this story, my most dominant one being surprise.
I look back in hindsight and marvel at the depth of my conditioning to “go along to get along”, “don’t rock the boat”, don’t raise any dissent or objection which will allow you to be typecast as an “angry black woman”.
The irony is that all that efforting was an exercise in futility. I was type cast anyway.
I didn’t even scratch the surface of the many egregious micro & macro aggressions that transpired,
during my final few years because they were too many to number. And I didn’t want the larger story to devolve into a list of grievances.
I wanted to stress that at the end of the day it was a victory story, not a victim story. The me of 2022, would not have lasted in that environment anything remotely approaching 9 years.
I’ve done a lot of introspection and a lot of of trauma work which has led to a lot of healing. Given your professional background I know that you “get” the significance of that better than most.
I think far too highly of my healed and self-aware Black self in this season of life to subject myself to prolonged employment amidst that type of toxicity and bias.
Thank You Anger for showing me the way out!!!